These past few weeks have been a bit overwhelming. Last week I studied for a nursing exam all week and then didn’t do as well on it as I thought that I would. Right after that test on Wednesday, I started studying for two more tests that I have today and tomorrow. Along with studying and trying to prepare myself for these exams more, I have been working on a speech that I get the opportunity to share at an event hosted by Marshall called “Take Back the Night”. You could say that I kinda of have a lot going on…

I have always been one to naturally do well in school. High school was a breeze and freshman year of college pretty much was too. Although school has always been easy to me, I still found myself struggling to focus on one thing at a time. I never really saw a problem with it because it didn’t affect my schooling. But recently I have not been doing as well on my exams as I would like even though I am spending more than enough time studying.

I never thought that I would be one to possibly have ADHD, but so far that’s what it’s looking like (I have an appointment next week to be sure). I recently heard that ADD and ADHD are now considered the same diagnosis. When you think of ADHD, you probably think of a young kid bouncing around a classroom and not being able to focus. Although that is one type of ADHD, the other type is ADHD just in your mind. I may not be exhibiting the outward “hyper” symptoms of the diagnosis but I am most certainly experiencing them in my head. I can be reading a question on an exam and then find myself thinking about 40 different things that have absolutely nothing to do with nursing at the same time. My mind never seems to stop. It just keeps going whether I need rest or not.

I been awake for 36 hours as of right now. Hoping that I get to rest sometime soon, I’m still studying and still working. Since I haven’t been to the doctor yet and am not currently medicated for it, I am doing everything that I can to keep my focus on school. In my complete mental exhaustion this morning at 7am after studying for 8 hours straight, I decided to pray. I didn’t know what I needed to pray about, but I just felt the need to close my eyes, clear my head, and really talk honestly to God. In that 20 minute conversation I had with Him, I felt focused and I felt a sense of peace.

Knowing that I always have Christ to lean on is such a blessing that I take for granted. If you get to a point like me where you just can’t focus anymore, take just a minute to stop what you are doing and talk to God. Ask him to clear your head and keep you focused. Tell Him about your day. He is ALWAYS there waiting for you to come to Him. Whoever is reading this, I pray for peace to come over you. May the 10,000 thoughts you have swirling through your head, even for just a moment, subside as you focus on the only true thing that matters in this stressful life. Jesus.